Monday, December 26, 2016

Hello from the other side

Hello everyone, I know that I have been quiet for some time.  Be patient and know soon I wll be back to blogging at least weekly. I have a lot going on from family in the hospital to holidays.  Soon meaningful posts will come again, life is starting to calm back down.  Thanks for the patience!

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Happy Thanksgiving!

Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.
Psalm 100:4

I hope each of you have a wonderful thanksgiving!  May you be a testament of God's love to those you see and may you feel His love back!  Blessings upon you!

Thursday, November 17, 2016

In the name of Jesus


You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you.

John 15:16

You know it is amazing how much is done in Christ's name.  Yet some of it is not in Christ's spirit.  You may be wondering what I mean by that.

Let's say I gave you a bottle and said open it.  You have different options to open it.  First one, you could break it open, but then it get's everywhere and you have broken glass everywhere.  Second one, you could give it to someone else to open, but then you really didn't open it did you?  Third one, you could force the top off, but it could explode doing this.  Finally, you can gently open it up, awe now we can enjoy the inside and even close it if need.

Doing things in God's name especially when dealing with others is like that bottle.  First you can come in a threatening manner, the person you are approaching would then be turned off and become upset with the church.  You could have someone else go and talk to them, but then are you really serving God or are you being passive?  You could force the issue when they are not ready, sure you may wear them down, but still there will be anger and resentment. Lastly, if you come to a person in love and grace like Christ would, then you can be sure they will be open to you more welcoming.

We have to be careful what we do in God's name!  We must ask ourselves four questions.  One, are we doing this out of love? Two, are we doing this for the best of God's church?  Three, are we doing it in God's timing or our own?  And four, are we doing this in a Christ like manner? If any of those are no, then we need to rethink our actions and look for another option.

Monday, November 14, 2016

Why blog?

“Go, stand in the temple courts,” he said, “and tell the people all about this new life.”
Acts 5:20

I got asked recently why I blog.  Well, there are several reasons as I look deeply at the question of why.  I can tell you though, it was an easy decision to do so!

First it was because there is barely any active Christian lesbian blogs.  I searched and searched and most I found are not kept up to date.  They are good resources, but I want fresh things to read.

Second, I love to write and share my experience.  I have lived a full life...why not share it!!!

Third, it helps others.  If just one thing I say in the blog helps another, then I have done my job.

Fourth, it helps me.  I get to learn more about the Bible and expand my own understanding.

Fifth, the most important reason is that God asks me to.  He says go out and tell about the good He has done in my life.  He says to serve Him and serve others!

So I blog, to be a service, help others, help self, and serve God.

Friday, November 11, 2016

Hallelujah - Pentatonix


Lee Greenwood - God Bless The USA (Home Free Cover) (All Vocal) (A Cappella)


Love not hate


“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Matthew 5:43-48

Love not hate
by Lesley Hooper

The fear sets in, the reality is here.
The world is becoming a scary place.
So much hate, so much pain.
But Christ says, "Love not hate."

People being beaten because they are different.
People being abused where they should be safe.
People being threatened in their own communities.
But Christ says, "Love not hate."

You see the fear in peoples eyes,
Yet you see the hate in others.
You know there is a different way.
Christ says, "Love not hate."

Be the light among the darkness!
Be the peace of the storm!
Be the calm of the sea!
Be the love not hate!

In these uncertain times, we don't know what will happen.  Fear is real for many of us, but we can not let it rule us!  God has this and will take care of His children!  We can't stop others from being hateful and committing hate crimes, but we can direct our energy to give love!


Folks who are feeling unsafe right now, I'll be wearing a #safetypin. If you see me or others wearing the same, know that you are safe with me, with us, that I will speak out against hate, and do what I can to make the spaces around me safer for you, whether you are LGBTQIA+, disabled, non-white, non-male, non-Christian, or any other marginalized group. I see you. I stand with you.A safety pin is a simple thing. Anyone can wear one. They are easy to acquire. The UK managed it with Brexit, and we can help our fellow Americans feel safer in the same way: by indicating we are safe, and will speak out against hate. #stophate

Remember: this is not just an opinion. It is an act of solidarity. If you wear one, and you see something, be the voice. Be the change. Call that hate out. Video it for evidence. Offer support to the victim. Call the police. Shout for attention. Do. Something.

I will stand up for the right of others and be a safe place for people, will you?

Friday, November 4, 2016

Having Faith In Hard Times


“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered.

Mark 11:22

How easy it is to just say have faith!  But when life hits you, it is harder.  As many know right now my dad is in the hospital from a wreck.  I have found some days, my faith in God to get us through this is strong and other days very weak.  I think God knows that we are going to have those days though.  But yet He still requires us to have faith in Him.

I wish I could tell you the key to having faith, but I can tell you what has helped me.

One is prayer, no matter what pray!  Pray thanks for the good and bad.  Pray for others. Pray and tell on your struggles.  No matter what pray!

Second is get into the word of God!  If I know what God does for others from the Bible, then I know what He will do for me!

Third is get involved with others.  When life has me down, when I can't see what to do, and have to have faith, I help another.  I get off my doubts that way and helping another helps me.

Fourth is I ask for help from my church family.  We are not on this planet to be alone, if so God would put just one person on it at a time.  My church family prays with me, lifts me up, and sends encouragement.

Lastly, I remember that no matter what, I have no say in the matter.  It is God's will that will be done and I get to be there for it.  That even though there are hard times, they teach me to lean on Him and appreciate the good times.

I hope you get something out of this and please feel free to share things you do to keep the faith.

Monday, October 31, 2016

A Father's Love

Picture is of me when I was one or two and my dad.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 3:16

Today I sit here thinking of my own dad.  He is in the hospital after a car wreck on Friday.  He has a couple broken ribs, bleeding in the lungs, and a small bleed in the brain.  Along with that his knee is a size of a small watermelon, his hand and wrist is bruised, and he has a black eye.  He is wearing a neck brace to keep from hurting things worse as his ten-dents in the neck are pulled and they also want to keep from any pressure on the brain.  If that is not enough for one person to deal with, my dad is a double lung transplant patient.  He has a bad heart and gets clots easily when not on his blood thinner which had to be stopped while he is in the hospital right now.  Needless to say, my every thought is with him and there may not be much posts on here right now while we deal with this.

My dad has always been my rock.  I have always been his little girl and I love him so much and know he loves me too.  We may not see eye to eye on everything, but we always are there for each other.He taught me to drive, ride a bike, and about God.  I also get some of my humor from him.  He may have adopted me, but I am his through and through.

A dad's love is like no other, but honestly there is One whose love is even greater!  That is God's love!  I don't know if my dad would have given up one of my brother's for me, but I know that God gave up Christ for me!  In the end, when no one is there, God always is!

May He be with each of us as we go through out our days and show us His love in all aspects of our live. God bless each of us!

  

Friday, October 28, 2016

Dealing with temptation



No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13

Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
James 1:12

Life is full of temptation.  I aught to know!  I know for me temptation comes in many forms from a good looking drink to a good looking woman.  I am talking about really tempted!  Like you are walking a date up to the door and she asks you to come in and you know if you do then you will end up in the bed with her.  Like going to your favorite drag show at a bar, knowing that you are having a hard time saying no to alcohol and you want a drink. Or say calling in sick because you just want a day to yourself, so you lie to your boss to take it.

So what do we do when tempted?  Good question.  At one time, I would fall into the temptation and do it.  I would sleep with the girl even if I didn't want anything else to do with her.  I would steal money to make it to pay day when I could have asked for help.  I would lie my way out of situations. I was the one who let temptation take me to places that I should have never been.

So what is different now?  I pray.  I ask God to help me.  And biggest thing, I don't go where temptation lies.  I instead get busy in God's work.  I fill my time in church gatherings, going to support groups, helping others, and more.

Getting past temptation is easy when you ask God what the next right step is to take, and then, here is the key, you take it!  You follow His lead!  You say no when everything says yes because you know that the yes is not Godly.  

It isn't easy!  Trust me, now that I know that sex is really enjoyable, I want it again, but I am not married and so therefor I can not just go sleeping around.  I can't even write the stories about sex that I at one time found pleasure in. I am a recovering alcoholic and therefore can't just go have a drink.  I fret over money and can't go stealing things to make ends meet.  I can't do many things because they are not what God wants me to do with my life.

God wants us to live a life that is leaning on Him and doing His good work.  We are to allow Him to give us a way out of temptation.  We are to call out to Him for the strength.  We are to do what He asks of us.  Therefor we have to pray and do what we see as the next right thing.

How do I know what is the next right thing?  To know God's will and next right thing, I have to be in His word.  I must get to know my Savior by knowing what was left for us to learn from about Him.  I have to listen for those personal messages from God.

So to overcome temptation, I must pray, be in God's word, and do the next right thing!

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Her Love


Her Love
by Lesley Hooper

Her love fills me to the soul.
Her love keeps me a fool.
Her love takes my breath away.
Her love pushes me to sway.

Her love is pure.
Her love is true.
Her love is honest.
Her love is kind.

Her love is like no other, it does not leave.
Her love is like an ocean, filling the depths.
Her love is like a tree, strong and rooted.
Her love is like a book, ever writing new chapters.

Her love is not my love though.
Her love is not given to me.
Her love is a lost love.
Her love will ever be on my mind.

May she find someone to give her love.
May she smile on me who had her love.
May she be at peace in her love.
May she forgive in her love.

Can't postdate God!


For he says, “In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you.” I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation.
2 Corinthians 6:2

At work we postdate files to run on a certain date in the future.  A person signs up and promises that they will pay on x date.  They don't always go through but when they do, it is a good day.  As I think about this, I think of God.

I can't make promises that I will do something on x date with God.  I can't say, "God, on February 13th, 2017 I will do this for your service."  I instead need to be doing the best I can for God on a daily basis.

God does not say, "Lesley, I won't bless you till the 20th of the month." No, it says now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation.  God don't postdate His love, why should we act like we are to Him?

Today, do what you would tomorrow for God!  Live as if there is not going to be a tomorrow, cause tomorrow is not promised.  Don't postdate God for He does not postdate you!

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Acceptance of others


Accept the one whose faith is weak, without quarreling over disputable matters.

Romans 14:1

We all want to be accepted.  We all want to belong to something greater than ourselves.  When you are different though, you don't always feel accepted.  No matter what, you don't see your piece of the puzzle fitting in place with everyone else.

When you are gay, you get the old line "We accept you, it's just the sin we hate." as they shun you at the same time.  And who is to say it is a sin?  If you are paying attention to my series on The Bible and Homosexuality then you will see, none of the scriptures actually say a loving, committed, monogamous relationship that is homosexual is a sin!

Acceptance is something I guess I will talk about often.  Why? Glad you asked!  Maybe because it is something I have always fought with.  I remember being a kid and not feeling like I was like everyone else and that none of the other kids liked me.  I remember that I was made fun of through out all of my schooling.  I was never popular or well accepted.

Now days, I don't care if I fit in.  And I take on as friends those others that did not fit in and make them accepted by me.  No one should ever feel as an outcast, and since I know what that feels like, I will never make someone else feel that way.

Outcast though, strong word!  Isn't that what we do to someone that we don't understand or feel their action is not right some how?  Don't we outcast those that we judge?  Don't speak to that person they are a sinner!  Yet we are all sinners!

God was the best at accepting a person just as they are and changing them into someone that He could use for the betterment of the whole.  The Bible is full of Christ accepting into the flock those that others turned their back on.

I believe if He were here today, He would be saying the same message, "Come as you are!"  He would be saying "I will accept you and love you"  He would say "Hey you there, yes you, just cause you like women and are a woman, is not what is important, what is important is that you follow me and I accept you!"

I remember a long time ago, I sat in front of a mirror and the counselor sat with me and had me say over and over again "I accept you" to myself in the mirror.  That was one of the most powerful things to do.  I cried and still tear up when I think about it.

Acceptance is a powerful thing, but we have to do more then just say we accept someone, we have to put action behind it!

So how do you show acceptance?  Be friendly.  Be kind.  Don't walk away when approached.  Don't give a look of disgust when you look at a person.  Be a Christian who is not afraid to talk to others and have conversations that are more then "You are wrong and I am right" and get to know a person, not just what you hear about them.

But most importantly, show love and a welcoming spirit!  Everyone, even you, needs to feel accepted and wanted, but it is up to us to show that to others.  Who will you accept today?

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Loves God Likes Girls by Sally Gary Book Review


I would not say that this book is about being gay as much as it is about a daughter finding a relationship with her dad and her need to fit in with people.  I thought that there would be more on her struggle of being gay, but found that to be just a small tiny part of the book.

Did I enjoy it? Yes!  I could relate to many things she talked about, like not fitting in.  Yet I would not give this book to someone just starting out in learning about homosexuality.  If you are looking for a good read, give this a shot.

Monday, October 24, 2016

I Should Be Laughing: Can I Get An Amen: CJ Is Going As Bob The Drag Que...

I just love this story!



I Should Be Laughing: Can I Get An Amen: CJ Is Going As Bob The Drag Que...: CJ is a 9-year-old gender nonconforming boy and he is ready for Halloween. This year he wants to dress up as his personal hero, so h...

Communion with Christ


While they were eating, Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”

Then he took a cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you. This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. I tell you, I will not drink from this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.”

Matthew 26:26-29

When I was a child, my father and I would go and prepare the trays for communion. I remember putting in the crackers in trays, using the cup filler to fill the grape juice, and stacking the trays up to be used Sunday morning.

I thought of this time as time to be with my daddy and less about something to prepare for a time with God the next day. As I got older, times with my dad grew farther apart. So any time with him was good.

Now that I am grown, I realize communion is time with the Heavenly Father in remembrance of Christ dying on the cross for us. I now take time to dwell upon that during each Sunday's passing of the cup and bread. To realize the gift that was given so that one day I can be in Heaven with God.

What a gift that is!

Saturday, October 22, 2016

How did I know I was a lesbian?

"Then God said, "Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock, and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground." So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them."
Genesis 1:26-27

"Whoever sheds human blood, by humans shall their blood be shed; for in the image of God has God made mankind."
Genesis 9:6

"A man ought not to cover his head, since he is the image and glory of God."
1 Corinthians 11:7

"For those that are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God"
Romans 8:14

"So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ."
Galatians 3:26-27

When I was young, I always wanted to experiment with girls.  I remember one time a boy and me showed each other what the other got and laughing cause it looked so funny to me.  And ever since then, the male body looked funny to me.  I have always been drawn to women.

Some of my closest relationships are with women.  I can't explain it.  It just is!  The first time I slept with a man, I felt dirty and unclean, but the first time I was with a woman, it felt right and I found it to be wonderful.

But this attraction is more then sex, it is also who I am drawn to for friends.  An intellectual relationship!  An emotional bond!  Sure I can be one of the guys, but I don't get guys.  I, on the other hand, don't get women either, but am more likely to have a relationship with a woman before I am a man.

I am what they call a soft butch.  I want to be the care taker, I want to dote on a woman, I want to be the knight in shining armor.  I don't want to be saved, as I already am through Christ Jesus.  I do want a partner though.

I always knew I was different, but it wasn't till my twenties that I really understood why I was different.  And today, being a lesbian is the natural way to me.  I don't see myself with a man, maybe a roommate, but not coupled with one.

It just saddens me though that there are people that want you to change your DNA and just stop being a lesbian.  I can't pray it away, nor do I wish to!  It is like my mental illness, I can't stop being bipolar.  It is who I am.

We don't ask straight people to stop being straight, so why ask a gay person to stop being gay?  It doesn't make sense to do that.  If we are truly all made in God's image and God doesn't make a mistake, then who are we to say someone has to stop being themselves?

God says we are his children when we are baptized into Christ, not before that and we don't stop after that.  Just because I am gay doesn't make me any less a child of God!  It just means I am different then some.  But hey, aren't we all different in some way.

I don't go along and tell someone to stop being themselves.  Our differences make us better for each other, where one is giving another can make sure there is enough to take care of the household.  Where one is outspoken, another will be able to softly speak to those that are turned off by a loud person.  And where a straight person can save many, a gay person may just bring another gay person into the love of Christ because they understand that person better.

Next time you want to tell someone not to be them, think would you want someone to tell that to you?  Being who we are is not the sin, it is acting upon the things that are not Godly that is.  And me being a lesbian is not wrong, me having sex before marriage that is wrong.  Me being with a woman in a healthy relationship is not wrong.  But that is for another topic which we are covering in a series in this blog, if you have not read it go to the section titled "The Bible and Homosexuality".

In closing, I am a lesbian not because I say I am, but because that is who I am to the core.  That don't mean I am less a child of God because of it, just means I am different.

Friday, October 21, 2016

God is love medely


Acappella "Hush" cup version


Falling in love with Christ again



"If you love me, keep my commands."

John 14:15

I have been thinking on this a lot lately.  Do I love the Lord?  I think I am starting to, but full on all out love, not yet.  The good news is that God don't require me to be head over heals in love with Him right away.

I think God knows it takes time to build love and trust in Him.  It is like any relationship, it takes time to build.  Yet I can't help but feel like I should already be all in.  It is hard to be coming from years of turning my back to now relying solely on God for everything.

I want to, don't get me wrong, but this is a process.  There is a history and things that have to be overcame to move forward.  So now I settle for liking God a whole lot with intent to know better so I can fall in love with him.

Do you find it hard to love God?  What is your experience in it?

Thursday, October 20, 2016

A Personal Journey from Ignorance to Purple Pride




A Personal Journey from Ignorance to Purple Pride: Editor’s Note: With October being LGBTQ awareness month. This piece offers a great insight.  What I did Thursday was part of the evolution of a personal journey One conversation triggered a transforming journey in my life. My stepson, Brennan, a high school student, had a young woman close friend. One morning, my husband discovered them, clothed, together in …

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

The Bible and Homosexuality Part 2 Sodom and Gomorrah



For those that don't know the story, here it is:

Genesis 19 New International Version (NIV)
Sodom and Gomorrah Destroyed

19 The two angels arrived at Sodom in the evening, and Lot was sitting in the gateway of the city. When he saw them, he got up to meet them and bowed down with his face to the ground. 2 “My lords,” he said, “please turn aside to your servant’s house. You can wash your feet and spend the night and then go on your way early in the morning.”

“No,” they answered, “we will spend the night in the square.”

3 But he insisted so strongly that they did go with him and entered his house. He prepared a meal for them, baking bread without yeast, and they ate. 4 Before they had gone to bed, all the men from every part of the city of Sodom—both young and old—surrounded the house. 5 They called to Lot, “Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so that we can have sex with them.”

6 Lot went outside to meet them and shut the door behind him 7 and said, “No, my friends. Don’t do this wicked thing. 8 Look, I have two daughters who have never slept with a man. Let me bring them out to you, and you can do what you like with them. But don’t do anything to these men, for they have come under the protection of my roof.”

9 “Get out of our way,” they replied. “This fellow came here as a foreigner, and now he wants to play the judge! We’ll treat you worse than them.” They kept bringing pressure on Lot and moved forward to break down the door.

10 But the men inside reached out and pulled Lot back into the house and shut the door. 11 Then they struck the men who were at the door of the house, young and old, with blindness so that they could not find the door.

12 The two men said to Lot, “Do you have anyone else here—sons-in-law, sons or daughters, or anyone else in the city who belongs to you? Get them out of here, 13 because we are going to destroy this place. The outcry to the Lord against its people is so great that he has sent us to destroy it.”

14 So Lot went out and spoke to his sons-in-law, who were pledged to marry[a] his daughters. He said, “Hurry and get out of this place, because the Lord is about to destroy the city!” But his sons-in-law thought he was joking.

15 With the coming of dawn, the angels urged Lot, saying, “Hurry! Take your wife and your two daughters who are here, or you will be swept away when the city is punished.”

16 When he hesitated, the men grasped his hand and the hands of his wife and of his two daughters and led them safely out of the city, for the Lord was merciful to them. 17 As soon as they had brought them out, one of them said, “Flee for your lives! Don’t look back, and don’t stop anywhere in the plain! Flee to the mountains or you will be swept away!”

18 But Lot said to them, “No, my lords,[b] please! 19 Your[c] servant has found favor in your[d] eyes, and you[e] have shown great kindness to me in sparing my life. But I can’t flee to the mountains; this disaster will overtake me, and I’ll die. 20 Look, here is a town near enough to run to, and it is small. Let me flee to it—it is very small, isn’t it? Then my life will be spared.”

21 He said to him, “Very well, I will grant this request too; I will not overthrow the town you speak of. 22 But flee there quickly, because I cannot do anything until you reach it.” (That is why the town was called Zoar.[f])

23 By the time Lot reached Zoar, the sun had risen over the land. 24 Then the Lord rained down burning sulfur on Sodom and Gomorrah—from the Lord out of the heavens. 25 Thus he overthrew those cities and the entire plain, destroying all those living in the cities—and also the vegetation in the land. 26 But Lot’s wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.

27 Early the next morning Abraham got up and returned to the place where he had stood before the Lord. 28 He looked down toward Sodom and Gomorrah, toward all the land of the plain, and he saw dense smoke rising from the land, like smoke from a furnace.

29 So when God destroyed the cities of the plain, he remembered Abraham, and he brought Lot out of the catastrophe that overthrew the cities where Lot had lived.

Now the part that we are going to be looking at is just this small section:

4 Before they had gone to bed, all the men from every part of the city of Sodom—both young and old—surrounded the house. 5 They called to Lot, “Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so that we can have sex with them.”

6 Lot went outside to meet them and shut the door behind him 7 and said, “No, my friends. Don’t do this wicked thing. 8 Look, I have two daughters who have never slept with a man. Let me bring them out to you, and you can do what you like with them. But don’t do anything to these men, for they have come under the protection of my roof.”

9 “Get out of our way,” they replied. “This fellow came here as a foreigner, and now he wants to play the judge! We’ll treat you worse than them.” They kept bringing pressure on Lot and moved forward to break down the door.

There is a reason that the people wanted to have sex with the men that night. Rape was a form of demeanor and was used to show that they were not wanted there. This is hardly a case against homosexuality, but one about gang rape.

I don't feel that much time must be spent on this one as it has nothing to do with the kind of loving relationships that are found today where a couple who is same-sex chooses to be with each other.

This section is more pointing to anger, fear, and forcing action on the unwilling. Even today this is wrong!

Examples of this can even be seen today. We just down play it. You might be wondering what I am talking about. Say a kid moves to a new school. He goes to join the football team. He goes through a hazing and during it some of the older ones rape him. None of them are gay from that, but they humiliated the boy and they showed their dominance over the team. In this story of Sodom and Gomorrah, the people were trying to show their dominance over outsiders.
Like I said, not spending lot of time on this one, it shouldn't even be used as something against homosexuality. It really has nothing to do with it.

Fighting the good fight


"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses."
1 Timothy 6:12

 "For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time for my departure is near. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing."
2 Timothy 4:6-8

Today I went to a funeral and one of the things that the preacher pointed out was that she had fought the good fight and kept her faith.  It makes me wonder if that can be said about me.  

At this point in my life, I don't see it.  Sure I came back to God, but I have not been a good and faithful servant my whole life like I should have been.  I walked away when I should have stayed.  

The good news though is my race is not over, there is still time.  So how does one fight the good fight?

I believe it is in telling others about God, staying in His word, doing the next right action, and putting faith and trust in God.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Video by the author of Loves God, Likes Girls by Sally Gary





This is the author of the next book I am reading that soon I will do a review on.

Story time - First Date part two


Kelly and Angela arrived at Olympian Grill just in time to miss a big crowd that was leaving.  They optioned for a table outside by the ocean.  The sun was just setting.

"Isn't sunsets just beautiful on the water?" Kelly asked Angela.

"Yes, I love the colors of it, it helps also bring out the red in your hair." Angela responded taking Kelly by surprise.

Kelly had taken time to dress up for this date.  She put on her best jeans, boots, and a white button up that showed off her attributes.  She had also actually fixed her hair instead of just putting it up in a ponytail.  The fact that Angela acknowledged her hair, told Kelly that Angela liked what she saw as much as Kelly liked what she saw in Angela.

As the girls talked more about their likes and dislikes, Kelly found herself falling for Angela.  There was something in the way she felt with her.  Even though they were just starting to know each other, Kelly felt like she had known Angela her whole life, just waiting for her to be part of it.

"Excuse me, what are you two doing here?" asked John as he started walking up.

Both surprised, they in unison said, "On a date!"

"So I guess yall are hitting it off then."

"You can say that, what brings you here?" Kelly responded to John.

"I too am on a date with my wife...we don't usually come here, but decided tonight to get out." John pointed back to his table where Debbie, his wife sat.

"I hear this is a good place, my first time here." Angela said.

"Well, I won't keep yall, just wanted to say hi." John said as he walked back to his table.

"Small world, huh?" Kelly said to Angela giggling.

"Yeah, I was just thinking that...don't look but over there next to where they are seated is another couple, I would have not said anything but that is my ex and I think she just saw me.  I hope she don't try to come over and start anything!"

"Well, if she does, she has me to go through."

"That is sweet, but I don't want any trouble tonight, I just want to get to know you and see where we go from here."

Soon the waiter came and took their orders.  Kelly could not help but let her mind wonder what would happen if Angela's ex came over.  How would Angela react? How would Angela introduce her?  Before she could wonder much more, her fear came true.

"Angela, what are you doing here?" Stacy said as she walked up.

"I am on a date, this is Kelly."

"Well, just be better to her than you were to me."

"Stacy, don't go there, besides looks like you are on a date too."

"Oh her, she is just a friend.  I am still waiting on you to wake up!"

"Stacy, just go!"

Just as Stacy was about to say something else, Kelly stood up.

"My date, Angela, asked you to go.  I recommend you follow that advice and leave!"  Kelly demandingly said.

"This don't concern you!"

"That is where you are wrong, this is my date, not yours, and I will not let you come over and interrupt it and make Angela upset.  Now, she left you, time you moved on!"

The manager now walked over.

"Ladies, is there a problem?" the manager asked.

"No sir, this person was just leaving." Kelly said firmly.

With a huff and a puff, Stacy walked away and got her friend and left.

"I am so sorry Kelly, thank you for defending me though." Angela said while lowering her head in embarrassment.

"No need to apologize, I am here for you and I was not going to let her ruin this night."

"You are too kind."
"Nah, just me!"

With that, dinner came and the ladies enjoyed themselves.  Neither talking more about what just happened but Kelly feeling proud that she was there and Angela feeling thankful that Kelly was so protective.

"I am not ready for this to end...up to a show?"  Kelly shyly asked Angela.

"Sure, what you got in mind?"

"I know a little drag show that is fun."

With that the ladies headed off to Robert LaFitte's, the oldest gay bar in Texas!

Stay tuned next week as we conclude the date.  Will there be a first kiss?  What do the queens do that embarrasses Kelly?  How will the date end?

Monday, October 17, 2016

Love like no other


If I speak in tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.  But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears.  When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.  When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.  For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain; faith, hope, and love.  But the greatest of these is love!
1 Corinthians 13

Oh to love!  I remember that feeling.  Head over heals in love with someone!  I look at pictures of friends and family getting married or dating someone new and so wish I was.  I miss having someone that is my person.  And then it hits me, Christ is my person.  

There is no greater love as that found with Christ.  He is always there.  Patient, kind, and protecting me.  Christ's love is not like any other.  Yet that don't stop me from wanting a partner in life.  Someone that can hold me, touch, kiss, and grow with.

Today, I pray for the loves lost, the love to come, and patience to that day.  I will have my happy ever after, but first I need that first date and before that, I have to finish getting ready for the person God has in store for me.  So, I walk with Christ, learn more about loving self and putting Him first, and wait for my person to be ready too!

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Come as you are


 At that time Jesus declared, “I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that you have hidden these things from the wise and understanding and revealed them to little children; yes, Father, for such was your gracious will.  All things have been handed over to me by my Father, and no one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son chooses to reveal him. Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:25-30

Today's blog is inspired after I asked my Facebook friends what to write on today.  And what a good topic it is.  So often we think to know God and to be one of His children, we have to be perfect.  Yet that is not what God says.  Jesus said come to me all who labor and are heavy laden.  Not, come to me all who are perfect.  In an earlier scripture He says:

On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.' For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
Matthew 9:12-13

God, knows that we come broken, sick, sinners.  That is why He sent a savor!  So if you feel you have done too much wrong doing, too broken to move forward, and that God won't like what he finds, think again!  God wants you!  Just as you are!  He will fix what needs to be fixed and He will love you through it!

You might be saying, but Lesley you don't know what I did.  No, I don't but I know this, God is using me and I came broken!  I was a thief, lier, cheat, and much more.  I thought cause I had mental disorders I was not worthy.  Shoot I am an alcoholic.  I tried to commit suicide more times then not.  I came broken, with a past that is full of shame, and God said here, let Me love you back to wholeness and through My healing of you, you shall tell others and bring glory to Me.

Let God do what is best, come to Him as you are and let Him do the healing, repairing, and loving. It is worth it all the way! 

Happy Saturday

Friday, October 14, 2016

A letter from Watermark Church ousting a homosexual member

A letter from Watermark Church ousting a homosexual member is going viral

"We write often about Watermark, a large church visible from I-635 near Central that provides many services to Lake Highlands residents. The church-operated free clinic QuestCare is located in our neighborhood, for example. And it also involves itself in disaster relief and outreach at home and nationwide.
But Watermark is the subject of discussion — much of it heated — on social media. People are reacting to a letter shared by former church member Jason Thomas in which church elders inform him that he is “no longer a member of the body at Watermark.”
Their reason? His “participation in a same-sex relationship with another man,” which the leadership calls a “destructive pattern.”"

Go to the post for the rest of the story.  But this just gets to me!  I am so glad my church welcomes me and lets me make my own conclusion on things.

The Bible and Homosexuality - Part 1


"If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen."
1 Peter 4:11

This is a new series for me to write.  I will be looking at the different scriptures about homosexuality.  Breaking them down.  Getting to the meaning of them.  May God bless us with knowledge and understanding as we grow to know His word and His meaning!

Here is a quick chart of the seven main ones we will be looking at:

LocationTypical interpretation by religious conservativesTypical interpretation by religious progressives & secularists
Genesis 19Condemns all same-sex sexual behavior, whether by two men, two women, within a loving committed relationship or a "one-night stand.".Condemns anal raping of strangers for the purpose of humiliation.
Leviticus 18:22Condemns all same-sex sexual behavior.Condemns gay ritual sex in a Pagan temple and/or males having sex in a woman's bed.
Leviticus 20:13Condemns all same-sex sexual behavior.Condemns gay ritual sex in a temple and/or males having sex in a woman's bed.
Romans 1:26-27Condemns all homosexual behavior as unnatural.Describes a group of heterosexuals who, against their basic nature, engage in same-sex behavior during ritual orgies.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10Sexually active homosexuals will go to Hell, not Heaven, at death. Once truly saved, homosexuals will become heterosexuals.Male child molesters and the children they molest will go to Hell, not Heaven, at death.*
1 Timothy 1:9-10Condemns all same-sex sexual behavior.Refers to child molesters and the children they molest.
Jude 1:7Sexually active homosexuals will go to Hell, not Heaven, at death.Humans who have sex with other species -- angels in this case -- will go to Hell, not Heaven, at death.

May we come out of this with great understanding.  Next week we will start with Genesis 19 and take one a week till finish with them.  We will also look at more scriptures along the way that may come up.  Can't wait to walk with yall on this!

The Champion by Carman


Just a good song that tales the tell.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

All I Need Is Him!


"Don't pay attention to everything people say..."
Ecclesiastes 7:21

"Reverence for the Lord gives confidence and security to a person."
Proverbs 14:26

"If God like me, I like me, and you don't like me,
The problem is with you!"
David Yasko

I always worry about what others think and my confidence varies.  To be honest, too often I worry about if I am good enough for my friends, if my past will turn people off, or if my mental disorders will stop some relationships from happening.  I worry what others say.  I don't just worry, I fear what they say.

Yet God says don't pay attention to what people say.

Easily said right!  Hard to do though.  As it is, we people that get wrapped up in what others say and how we are treated.

Just the other day, I heard some talking about the big gal and automatically thought that it was me that they were talking about.  I have no clue who they were talking about, but the whole time I thought it was me, my mind went to dark places.  I soon did not like me and how I look.  It wasn't till I prayed to have God remove the negative talk, that I started to find my confidence back.

Notice what I said there?  I prayed to God and I got confidence!  Imagine that, the key to getting out of what others say is to turn it over to God and in return you get peace of mind and confidence.  Sometimes it doesn't happen right away, and that is when I don't believe in myself.

So how can we build our view of ourselves?  Pray for it, talk positive, and hang out with those that are positive...or more so, those that are part of God's family and act in love.

It ain't my concern what others think of me!  Like the quote above, if God likes me which I know he does cause he sent Christ to die for me, if I like me which I do because I am made by God, then it don't matter if you do and if you don't then that is your problem!  

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Love your enemies

"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven.  He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.  If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
Matthew 5: 43-48

What a tall order this is!  I am to love those that don't accept me and pray for those that shout hate towards me?  How is this possible?  I mean, don't you know that as being gay, you put up with people prosecuting in the name of God!  And yet, Jesus tells us to love them and pray for them.

One time a friend of mine told me that I should pray for those that I don't like.  She said say the prayer and then use an imaginary gun acting like you shoot them away.  I tried this and what changed?  Not them and their actions, but me!  I soon didn't have to pretend to shoot them, instead I found myself caring for them and wanting good for them.  My heart changed!

It is hard when you see hate coming your way to meet it with love though and prayer.  I hear regularly that God hates me because of my lifestyle choice.  I hear that I am going to hell.  I hear the hate and misunderstanding in the voice.  And all I can do is meet that with kindness, love, and prayer.

Those haters do not dictate my life with God.  They don't speak for Him.  Look at the following scripture:

"But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."
Matthew 6:15

Not only does God say that I should love my enemies, pray for those that prosecute me, but I should forgive others.  That don't say forgive friends, family, those you like, but others meaning all!  In order for me to be forgiven, I have to be forgiving!

Another tall order!  I don't want to forgive those that spew hate towards me!  I don't want to forgive people that use God's word to promote their ill intentions!  So how does one forgive?  Prayer!

See prayer is the answer to knowing how to be loving and forgiving!  God will provide the way to be so!  If our hearts are with Him, then there is nothing that can't be done!  Just means it is not easy and we have to pray for the strength to meet hate with love, kindness, forgiveness, and prayer!

May you find in God the strength to do so as I am learning still today to let God guide me in how to be more loving, forgiving, and pray for those that I don't like!

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

It's National Coming Out Day


I can't believe it is National Coming Out Day!  I almost missed it.  I didn't get to have a big coming out to my family, my brother did it for me.  I wasn't ready to tell anyone yet and told him, the next thing I know he let my parents know.  Needless to say, they were not too receptive of it.  Still aren't, but that is okay.  We just don't talk about it and life goes on that way.

I really wish though that instead of saying "Maybe one day you will meet a nice guy" they would say a "nice gal" or that one day I could bring someone home and they accept it.  I would love to say, "Mom, Dad, this is my girlfriend."

None of that though for me.  Instead they are friends, roommates, but never who they really are to me.  So if you are out there and don't have a family that accepts you as you are, you are not alone.

My folks may never accept me being gay, but they accept me as a person.  You don't have to come out, but if you want to be free to be you, then you have to start living who you truly are.  Remember that you are perfect just the way you are and though it hurts for family not to accept every aspect of your life, they won't be around forever and there are others that will treat you better then family and be there for you!

Story Time - The First Date part one


When we left Kelly and Angela, they had just met.  After seeing each other a few times at church, they decided to try a date.  Let's catch up with them...

Kelly, nervous as all get out, walks up to Angela's apartment.  She hides behind her back a flower.  Thinking this is cheesy to take a flower to her, but she wanted to make her smile.  Kelly took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

Angela, stood at the door for just a few minutes.  Is she really going to go out?  It had been years since she dated and the thought of getting out there just frightened her.  But with Kelly, nerves settled down and she felt calm around her. So with a deep breath and a quick prayer, she opened the door.

"Hey, I got you this, nothing big, just something for you." Kelly blurted out nervously.

"Oh thank you, I love flowers!" Angela replied.

The two of them just stood there staring at each other.  Neither knew that the other took their breath away.  That nothing seemed wrong in the world when in each other's presence.  Kelly and Angela just knew that they really liked the other and both prayed that this would become special.

"So, where are we going tonight?" Angela asked to break the silence.

"Oh, I figured to get a bite to eat and then if still want to continue the date, I got a little surprise for you."  Kelly replied.

Angela took the flower in and put in the vase and grabbed her things while Kelly waited at the door.

Kelly stopped Angela real quickly and asked if they could pray before they head out.  Shocked by this, Angela agreed.

Kelly prayed, "God, be with us as we discover more about each other and help us to just be ourselves with each other.  Remembering to put you first in all we do.  Let us have an enjoyable night and grow in our friendship. In Your Son's name Amen."

Angela, really liked this and was actually impressed that Kelly wanted to share a prayer with her before they went on their date.  It seemed to take the pressure off and let Angela relax a little more with Kelly.

They walked to Kelly's SUV and Kelly got the door for Angela.  She then ran to the other side smiling as she hoped in.  Not knowing what to say now, Kelly just focused on driving to the restaurant. One problem though, she did not know which one to go to yet.

"So, Angela, my dear, where would you like to eat? What are you in the mood for?" Kelly tried to ask all smooth.

"I don't know, surprise me!" Angela responded quickly.

Oh great, where was Kelly to go now...she had hoped to make that decision when Angela told her what she wanted.  Kelly decided then that she would go to a little Greek restaurant that she liked down on the coast.

On the way, they talked about church and what they liked about it and didn't like either.  They talked about music they liked and Kelly even put the station on country just for Angela.  Both became really intrigued with the other and found conversation to be easy for the two of them.

Stay tuned next week for part two as we follow them on their date...what does it have in store for them? Who will they run into at the restaurant? Where does Kelly take Angela next on the date?  Stay tuned to part two and three!